Forget you, there is a baby on the way!

Can you REALLY ever keep everyone happy??

My husband seems to think you can...which usually means *I* get the short end of that stick, so as to avoid conflict on his home ground. Sure, piss T off! She's not here. No fucking problem. Promises made to her can be broken at will as, well, she'll just have to learn to suck it up.

My mother seems to think you can. Oh, T's coming home for the first time in 3 years and bringing her husband home with her. Oh...really, I don't need to be there for that. Not like they have been planning this for the last 2 years. Nah. No biggie. Not at all.

On paper this plan works, so here is hoping it works in real life. I am talking about the fact that I just may not be home when you arrive in July. No surprise when I say that the way things stand at the moment, I will be in victoria. Now, according to your travel plans you plan on staying in Calgary recovering from jetlag for a couple of days. This, on top of the fact you & G plan on making a day or two trip to Saskatoon, it could give me the day or two I am going to need to make things work. It is a long story, and I won't get into it all right now, but did want to get this out to you and hopefully you can understand that I am between a rock and a hard place at the moment, and trying my best to keep everyone happy.

Fuck this shit.

Seriously.

Keep everyone happy. My fat white arse.

I've had this fight with my mother. "I hope you understand" seems to be her catch phrase. Sure, I get it. Yup. Does that mean I have to agree with it or accept it or think it's right? Nope.

And further more, me expressing MY opinion on matters DOES NOT make me a manipulative bitch, so for those of you who continue to fan that flame, FUCK OFF!! I'm damned if I do, damned if I don't. If I DON'T state my opinion or how I feel, I get walked on. If I do, even if I state clearly that it is MY opinion and it does not mean I expect people to cowtow to it, I get called controlling and manipulative. Can not fucking win, can I?

Mum emails back and says "Don't get all excited." Trust me...my first trip home in 3 years...why the godgivenfuckinghell would I POSSIBLY be excited? I want to email her back and say exactly that to her as well. "Why, dear mother, would *I* be excited to be coming home for the first time in 3 years AND bringing G with me? How utterly silly of me to think I should be excited about that when there are clearly bigger and infinitely better things going on. Excited? Nope. Not in the least. Why bother?"

Am I being irrational? Maybe. Am I fed up with this? Fucking right I am.

I'm at odds with she-I-call-Mother. If you ask her, I should NOT be the LEAST bit upset, as everything will work out. (Read: We'll do what we want and you'll have to suck it up.)

As we know, G and I are going home. Have had this trip planned since after I came home from Europe. Have had tickets since just after I came back from Aus this past summer. Mum/Dad and all and sundry KNEW that we arrived on the 16th July.

Sister's due date is June 27th. First oh so precious gurgling grandbaby. Whoopeee, says she who is not a baby person. I admit it, the birth of the impending niece is not making me do cartwheels. It's a baby. Meh. Sorry. Talk to me when it's talking and maybe it will be interesting. Sure, it'll be cute and mum/sis will be ga-ga over this little pink screaming creature. Me? I won't be.

Do I think sis planned the timing of the first golden grandbaby to fuck with our arrival? No...and the timing IS for shit. Has my mother known about our arrival longer than that of this infant who will be around for a good 40-50 years? Yup. Should that take priority? If you ask me, yes. Should they be home when I get there for the first time in 3 years, with my new husband? Fucking rights they should. Then you can go back to your precious baby daughter and her precious baby daughter. To not be there when we arrive, to me, is a MASSIVE slap in the face to both me and G. Is it better if one parent is there and the other gone? Honestly, it's insulting no matter what. It's not like we're flying in unannounced for fuck's sake.

But you don't understand....your sister needs HELP! It's her first baby!! It's our first grandchild!!!

Ya know what? They LIVE in Canada. WE do not.We, since choosing to go to Montreal for our honeymoon kinda trip, have shortened our time in MJ considerably. Apparently, it's not enough time to really put the fear of dog into her...so maybe I should just remove MJ from the list altogether. Would THAT get her attention? "Oh, well, since you'd rather be in Victoria, you can stay there. We'll catch you some other DECADE when/if we come back."

You also know what? You can go BACK after we leave. Yes, you can. I am sure that unless there is some massive medical emergency for which J and baby need to be hospitalized, all will be fine for a week. You can be where you should bloody well be when we arrive and then go back to babyville.

Basically, at this point, I do not give a rats arse if I see my mother. She's made her stance well known. Trying to please everyone? HAHAHA! Bullshit. She is trying to please herself and my sister. Forget me, I'll just deal with it. Well, this time, I won't. This is the biggest of the insults she's handed out to me in terms of me coming home and the like. Enough is enough.